Rabu, 19 April 2017
Kali ini bukan tentang siapa namun tentang bicara.
Hujan menyerah pada gumpalan awan gelap hingga ia meneteskan air pada bumi.
Awan gelap bukan tentang malam tapi tentang mendung.
Jogja diguyur hujan, semula deras, tapi menjelang gelap hanya rintik yang disiakan.
Menelisik jalan jalan riuh kota Jogja, bersama penulis kehilangan kata,
Seperti pelukis kehilangan kuas,
Seperti pemahat kehilangan pisau.
Sembilanbelas April duaributujuhbelas.
Ah apa saja,
Kau lihat perempuan yang biasanya terdiam dan terlalu banyak berkata iya.
Kau lihat kehangatan di kota Jogja yang sedikit membeku karena hujan yang syahdu.
Lalu dua orang baik hati untuk bicara malam ini.
Lalu sudut minoritas yang lebih baik dari keriuhan popularitas biasanya. Jati diri.
Juga mantan barista yang tak suka kopi seperti biasanya. Sudut hangat kota Jogja.
Minggu, 12 Februari 2017
Life is pain, highness. I have being the last but not least. I have being the first but not the begining.
Being a sleep. The trouble is,
I hate being alone, i hate to feel that pain everytime, so I fall a sleep.
A lot. When Im happy I sleep, When Im upset I sleep more. Sleep? Does it really really cure the pain? Kill the loneliness? Or.. It just hurt me more. Over and over again.
And knowing this, I feel very, very tired. It’s true, depression will make a person tired regardless, but I suspect my mind, knowing of the relief of sleep, urges its presence rather strongly.
Jumat, 03 Februari 2017
How come our marriage will be held on the next month?
Are you ready for this? Am I really really sure to our relationshit? Oh sorry, relationship. How come? Why married? Does he loves me? Does he really really there for me? Or just he want to break me twice and goes on. You know babe, i need someone to be really really fair in the relationship. Fair and love me so much. "Fair." Please read this word correctly without plus "a" in the begining. And.. You read this "afair". No.. Please. But, how come you keep lying so much when i knowing so much? How dare you.
Sabtu, 28 Januari 2017
A question "the reason why you get married?" a quotes answer "because all i want is only her, because i love her, because she is my home, because she can understand me" a reality answer "because she is pretty, because she is independent, because i dont know why i marry her, because she is smart, because i dont know who i shold be marry, because she wants to, because we need to be married, because life goes on, sometime we should be marry someone and love maybe comes after needs. Maybe"
A question "the reason why you get married?" a quotes answer "because all i want is only him, because i love him, because he is my home, because
he makes me happy" a reality answer
"Because i lost my hope, because im tired being alone, because i need to have someone to safe my life, because my age, because my parrents, because he is work, because i dont know why, because this is the time,"
Didnt you love each other?
HER : love? What? I think marry just a responsibility, a weight, a legal name to doing sex. Maybe wrong if marry because sex, but remember need someone to be a father of our child someday. So.. I marriage. I dont think so much about love and whats going on after marriage. Just married, and do the things what I should do as a wife.
HIM : love? Haha.. I just need her. I dont understand her, she dont understand me ofcourse. I just follow her wants to do. Give her what i can give. Safe her, because she is my wife not because i love her.
Are you ready?
HER : not really, I dont know why i shold be marry him. He didnt love me, i know, he cannot understand me, i know. HIM : i dont know about my self. I dont know why i marry her.
Two people. Who didnt love each other, didnt understand each other, who didnt know why they are married will be marry soon. Pathetic.
Selasa, 24 Januari 2017
Senin, 23 Januari 2017
Entah siapa yang dapat mengerti saya.
Memeluk saya dengan hangat dan berkata dia akan bertanggung jawab atas kehidupan saya selanjutnya.
Seseorang yang membebaskan saya dari beban saya sehari-hari.
Membiarkan saya menjadi seperti apa yang saya inginkan.
Lelaki seperti itu tidak saya temukan.
Sekali lagi saya tidak minta banyak.
Tapi sekali lagi anda tak mengerti.
Salam dari meja kerja berantakan.